prologue

a Love that i never felt before, so many question
a deteriorate love that no one could ever do it.
a love no one could descry for javeline push to my heart.
a love that never last but i won't live without it.
a love is obviate, only open minded could understand it.
i will scathe them, to robust of this love.
a love that treason in umpire for everyone.
a forbidden love.

realization2

Letting go is a tooth pulled out from a dentist.
Pulled it out you're relieved.
But many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably a 100 times a day or more than a hundreds..
Just because it wasn't hurting you doesn't mean you don't notice it, it leaves a gap and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly.
It's goin to take a while but eventually you'll learn to live with it.
Should you have kept the tooth?
NO?, cuz it's better to have a tooth than a to have an aching tooth..
Ironically I've rather have an aching tooth, cuz poofs...... it can pulled by a dentist
but in the world of unknown broken hearted...
wheeeeewwwwwwwwwwww so dramatic......
i wish i could pulled it out to stop it hurting my self... but the consequences is facing the reality to a constant hurting, and killing my heart softly...

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Funny how you run after happiness and end up wounded.

Ironically speaking, life has no direction since then.
It was you who made a puzzle in.
it was you who made your self cry.
Yet, thou things my happen because of you. There is no reason to blame yourself, cuz you’ll also be the reason why you can’t smile despite a wounded soul.
Just when to choose and react, talk and debate, smile and frown, lastly know the right person who can help you make the best puzzle life could ever had..

realization 1

Realization #1

how we can love people who don't seem to make things worth at all? why do we become so numb crying for people who at times don;t even think of us in a day or two? why do we let ourselves hurt and continue hoping for a love that makes us defenseless? and why do we prioritize these people who only choose us as option? are these reasons why sometimes in love we end up losing ourselves?

Realization # 2

no its more that loving does not depend on whether or not you are loved back.

but is just divine when just returned in the same manner and intensity.